In like a lion, out like a lamb… doesn’t seem that way anymore, at least not by the weather. Today is the first day of Spring. Still feels like winter. The gath ddu is tiring of the cold, or shedding her winter fur. It feels thinner now. She lets me brush it down now and then, but won’t let me touch her tail. She’s been coming in to mother Max. Stays just long enough to eat, play awhile, and nap on my bed. I snapped this photo yesterday.

I’ve been napping, too. This winter hibernation thing is getting old. I long for warm days, open windows, and a soft breeze.

My art project is a bit stalled. I need to buy some butane fuel before I can sweat the pipes. Tidying up is a bit stalled, too. Everything feels a bit stalled.

I’m still watching the levee… there has been no change. My sister pointed out a simple fact: if this woman really was “in a relationship” with the vet, she would have snapped a selfie with him to display some kind of loving couple photo as either her profile or header photo or at least something showing him in her house, something new, something more recent than the photo of him with his granddaughters that she had swiped off his page in December (the same photo that I know his daughter has asked him to make her to take down – she was not happy about a woman that she’s never even met publicly posting a photo of her children as the header on her Facebook page.) I’ve also become more vocal, flat out told him that if I had done what she did, he would have checked me. Hell, he came to talk to me when he thought a photo that I posted of myself was inappropriate. (At first glance, he thought the knuckle of my finger looked like a nipple, LOL). So, if what he says is true… that she’s just an old friend, he’s not messing with her or anything, then why hasn’t he checked her? Why does she STILL have that photo posted along with her “in a relationship” status bull? I’m also being bolder online… clicked a big ol’ heart on the last “I love you” comment she put on something he posted, like HELLO you dumb bee, I’m still here.

Petty, I know… part of me says just walk away but when he tells me that he loves me, I believe him. I feel it when he holds me, I see it in his eyes. In some ways, we are better off now than we have been in a long time. We talk more. I feel like he’s being more open and honest with me. So, take it day by day. If we ever do sever ties, it will have to be a complete break, a clean cut, no trying to remain friends or anything. It would be the only way I could let go.

Oh well, in the meanwhile… I closed my Etsy shop, got tired of paying listing fees. Right now, I have art and misc. items on Webstore. I’m not thrilled with that… I’ve only had one sale on Webstore (to someone I know locally) and looking for stuff to buy on there has been odd… straight up, it kind of feels like some of the sellers there got kicked off eBay. That’s the vibe I get from reading listings. Things like shipping fees will be determined AFTER committing to purchase, jacked up numbers like $20 postage for what I’d estimate would cost no more than $3.66 retail, local pickup only on items that could easily be mailed, strange bull in seller policies, etc.

Maybe I should just post my art on a stand alone website. Do I need a shopping cart? Or, just contact info? Could just put a tab on a blog.

This may sound weird, but I don’t really like to market art… I just like to make it. Of course, I’m happy when someone likes my art enough to want to buy it and selling art does justify spending money on art supplies. I’m just not into that whole business side of art, hours and hours of self promoting and all that. I just like to make it… if you like it, great… if not, oh well.

Hell, my own friends and family don’t even like my stuff… few exceptions. My sister Jai is always supportive. Dad, too. Most people just ignore me.

Well, I should just go back to bed. That’s the problem with naps… if I sleep in daylight, I’m up in the wee hours and ready to sleep again when most people are just starting their days.

Thanks for reading!