FRIDAY: I made a rain stick today. Yeah, it was kind of like a kiddie craft time with a “mindfulness” lady before the holiday dinner prepared for the residents of this building, but it is all cool. There is a history to rain sticks, but the purpose of these rain sticks is to soothe your mind with the sounds of rain. It does sound like rain, when you tilt the stick one way or the other, as the little pellets inside travel over obstacles in their fall. We each decorated our own cardboard tubes, using the stick on foam shapes that came in the group activity kit. It was a good, non-committal way to find out about the “mindfulness” meetings as she talked about what they do. I might start going.
I noticed something odd with the local lingo… no one “lives” here; they “stay” here. It sounds so temporary, as in my mind, you “live” at home, and “stay” places on vacation. Maybe no one really feels at home here, or maybe it is an alternate universe and we are all caught in a time warp. Okay, so I have a wacked imagination. I have been asked several times if I stay here now so yeah, I stay here, too.
SATURDAY: FedEx Smartpost (shipped by FedEx to the local post office, delivered by USPS mail) online tracking thing tells me that items ordered on Wednesday to be delivered “within seven days” will arrive today. Yikes! I don’t know what the Saturday mail proceedure for packages is here in this building. On weekdays, the USPS mailman will leave packages with the ladies in the office for safe keeping, who then telephone the resident to come down and pick it up. I really like that, as I have had too many packages stolen when I lived (or stayed) in other apartment buildings. Now I don’t know what is going to happen today because the office is closed on Saturday. Will the mailman leave it in the office anyway? (Not likely, the door is locked.) Will he leave it in the mailroom? (Its locked, too… but that is his room behind the rows of locked mail boxes.) Will he leave a slip in my box and make me go pick up my package at the post office? Will he leave it with the security guard or bring it to my door? Or will he leave it – hopefully not – on the floor in front of the mailboxes for anyone to steal? Nah, I think he knows better than that, there’s bound to be a reason why packages go to the office, a history of vanishing packages or something. So, I don’t know if I will get my package today, on Monday, or not at all.
What did I order?
Chocolate denim leggings and violet purple jeans. And what else? Oh yeah, a beaded gauze dress on clearance dirt cheap. The purple jeans were also on clearance. It is a light violet shade. I had to think a minute about that color, but I have no problem wearing light blue demin so why not light purple?
I made a decision this week… it is time to stop wearing jeans that are two sizes too big, which meant that I only had one pair of jeans that actually fit me and one pair of jeans that are only one size too big. As for sloppy tops, they’re okay for around the house, but too big to wear in public anymore. It is time to accept the fact that I am not going back up over that line. Those “fat clothes” will never fit me again. The mind takes so long to catch up as I really don’t feel smaller than I felt fifty, or even eighty pounds ago. The only time I feel skinnier is when I wear the jeans that actually fit, so maybe if I only wear jeans that fit, maybe it will be a good thing.
Well, maybe I should get dressed proper enough to go out in public and go talk to the security guard, ask him if he knows what the mailman does with packages delivered on Saturdays.